#3 - saturday, november 1st

[heartbreakhotel]

yesterday was my first halloween at the new job — i didn't know what to expect, but i wore a cat costume anyway. to my surprise, almost all the residents came down for breakfast wearing hats or capes or headbands; the dining hall was clinking with glitter and anticipation. in the late afternoon, a singer performed some elvis songs, and a few couples danced, and i admit i teared up a little.

i feel like i've only been talking about work lately, but that's because i haven't done anything else in the last month. hope to find some kind of balance soon.

today i went to pick up the keys for the new place. there are a lot of things to figure out, but for now, i'm just observing, kind of from a distance, and trying not to be too judgmental. the landlord was late. i feel like everyone is sort of late all the time and doesn't see much of a problem with it. is that just my impression? am i being grumpy? anyway. he was late, and there was nothing around to pass the time except a flea market, so that’s where i went. i had somo awesome persian food at a booth, and ended up buying portishead's dummy on cd and a copy of blue velvet for $10.

i don't have a definite moving day, maybe thursday or friday. everything feels suspended in the air, and i still can't quite believe i'm actually doing this.

daylight saving time ends tonight, which means i don't have to worry too much as i'll have an extra hour to get things done even if i wake up late. i'm happy i don't have to work overnight today, but the prospect of the days getting dark at 5pm in a neighborhood with zero things to do and zero places to go is haunting me a bit. i feel like i'm going to have to be my own company on levels i've never experienced, and i don't know if i'm ready for the challenge  — but now it's too late.

Comments

[garrettcoleton]

what job do u have? seems cool!:p